For those that my not be familiar with the song I'll give you a taste of the chorus...it's by Derek Webb:
and i am like a mockingbird
i’ve got no new song to sing
and i am like an amplifier
i just tell you what i’ve heard
oh, i’m like a mockingbird

After hearing that song today all i could think was "GOOD GRAVY! He's singing about me!"

I've been fortunate enough to have an amazing family and awesome parents that love Jesus and showed that to me. But as a result of growing up in a Christian family and in the church, I've learned all the ways to pretend to be godly and speak "Jesus lingo" without actually having a legitamate heart to heart. My conversations with God consist of the same things, half of which are things I've picked up by listening to other believers. My words are far from my own, and prayers are far from intimate conversation...rather a one-sided regurgitation of something shallow that I picked up on from somebody that is seemingly wiser than myself.

And now all I can think of is what garbage that is. Who cares if I can speak church talk and the "holy lingo." It's not real. In fact, the conversations I find myself having with God as of late are far from real...they're as fake as you can get. And what joy it brings me to realize how much God values a real conversation, with real issues, and no more pretending to holier than I am. It's so freeing.

Then on another note, I started thinking about my "testimony." It amazes me how as Christians so often we find ourselves sharing our testimony as an event that happened when we were ten years old and that's it. If that's the only thing God's been doing in our life then what kind of relationship is that?? We're a work in progress...and our story is continually being written. Yet I can't help but think that most of the song that I find myself singing is an old song...it's far from recent, which disgusts me.